To myself

" Time is the best cure when the painful reality is revealed "

A learning of the day of mine. Said it to me, and to anyone who are in a tough time facing reality. Reality is always hard to accept, but it's really nothing big, be strong, as time will do the best part in ease your bad feeling.

SINGLE

SINGLE is NOT a status.

It's a word that best describes a person who strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others.

*quote from a friend*

The day is too long for me, tear fall before i fall asleep, tear drop once i open my eyes. I dunno how many times i  think of u but heart pain bcos i can't reach u.

Think again n again.....i did something wrong make us into this situation? Y let me in this situation? Aren't we love each other so much?

That's a painful and deep scar in my heart. I feel alone and really scared to face u, do u know it?

Anyhow...U r still my loved 1 just like the time i 1st fall in love with you. No changes, but increasing my feeling to U.

Like the status of my friend so much, i have to be strong.

** Javerline always STRONG **

旋转式火锅初体验

"很忙啊!" "很"显"啊!" 接近sem尾声，这两句话常被挂在嘴边。

超过一个月没有和Dear去吃好吃的咯，难得星期六有空（其实也不是很空闲，我也不敢约他一整天，哈哈！）

午觉后，觉得很饿，就问他要不要去远一点的地方吃晚餐。两个人每次都不知道吃什么，讲下讲下就决定去Puchong吃“小”火锅--Shabu shabu。

我们就去这间名为“强强滚”的涮涮锅店试试看。位于Giant Bandar Puteri 旁边一排店的角头间，一到那里虽然只是6pm，已经很多人在排队了。

“哗！” 我惊讶到一下咯！ “有没有酱好吃哦？”

我们到了才知道是自助式火锅，要先付费后用餐的。一人RM29 nett。

上到三楼，电梯一开，看到旋转输送带上一盒一盒的火锅料，觉得很可爱! 哈，没有吃过，难免有点“山姑”嘛~

我们坐在输送带旁，手伸出去就可拿到食料，好方便，不用和别人挤，食料都根据种类排放，不错的概念！

虽然食料不算特别，我们俩都吃得超饱的！我那锅汤喝到最后熬得有点像咸菜汤了，哈！吃完后才想到没有拍照，我们也太饿了吧！

吃了晚餐，过去IOI Mall 逛逛，解一解我的“瞎拼”瘾！

我们很少星期六逛街，因为总觉得会塞在马路上，不然就人挤人，好累哦！

逛逛服装店、RM5 家居用品店和书店，也不知道是不是太饱了，脚累了，就回宿舍咯！

出去没有很久，也没买到东西，有他陪就很开心！

当当当~ 就是这间！

旋转式火锅，真方便！

No pain, No GAIN

有些路终究要自己走，多难，还是要走。

是不是一定会“船到桥头自然直”？ 我不懂，我也不敢“搏”！

逃避了很久，也是要面对啊！我不会，找不到，已不是藉口！

N i know the pain is small, my GAIN will be big !

相同的道理，我想我该把这句名言牢记并运用在我的事业上。

~＊加油＊～

痛 • 爱

每个月的那几天都很不舒服，肚子痛得只能躺在床上，四肢无力......

我的身体一天比一天虚弱,到底该怎么调理呢？吃补品？做运动？早睡早起？ 

一个女生长这么大还不会照顾自己，真是的......还说要照顾他......

这段时期的情绪更加起伏不定，连发梦都梦见被追杀，醒来心跳得很快很紧张！

有时也不懂为什么脑里出现很多负面的想法，告诉了他，偶尔还会吵架。

其实我知道他真的很迁就我的，只是我想要的关怀还是不够，是我要得太多吗？是我把太多心思都放在他身上吗？

我根本就做不到潇洒爱一个人，我只会用尽全力去爱你，就你一个！

A war with Chicken Pox

I had never think of i will be attacked by Chicken Pox since i m now a young adult! I have thought of already been immune by vaccine or came out b4! But, I was WRONG!

The day was sunny and happy swimming day with my "sam pat" coursemates. I realized some small little water blister on arm and neck, i thought i was sensitive to the water of swimming pool. Ok then, just bath and had dinner.

The next day, it was as usual i went out to Sunway Pyramid with my dear, thought will have a sweet dating day, but then i was feeling very tired and i straight take 2hours nap after i reached room without changing my clothes!

It was Sunday and i was very tired til i just laid on bed and prepared the outline of Negotiation. Whole day in a tiring condition, i guessed i was getting fever. By the time i went to bath....Oh GOSH! The number of water blister was shocked, and they r RED! I almost faint and keep worrying. I called my dad, he say i had took vaccine b4 should be no problem. Then i just rest.

I broke down finally in the mid night, my dear brought me to Hospital Kajang emergency department. Guess what? i have been waiting for 1 hour and more ! It's mid night k! The so-called doctor din't checked deeply and she diagnose i'm infected by Chicken Pox. I asked whether any injection i can take to ease my condition, NO, nothing... I have been giving 1 week MC and some medicine...

And the war of me n Chicken Pox started that day !

I can only intake some soft food like bread or drink when hungry and actually i felt like vomitting frequetly.
It was suffer the first few days, my face and body full of those POX!!! I even cried to my dear saying I'm ugly now, I cried bcos i cant sleep the whole night...

I asked my dear to brought me to doctor again, this time is private 1 ! The doctor said " U're late, u're in the stage of uncontrollable, can't do any injection 4 u...What u can do is wait and cure itself ." Haiz...disappointing me...

During the fight, I bath evyday like usual as doctor said can't be lazy, then apply Calamine cream all over body included face, drink fruit juice and oat meal, eat porridge and plain soup noodles...sleep Gao Gao is issential^^

I think it was 4th or 5th day, I'm energized when wake up! It feels Great !!! Since that day, my dear brought me out for lunch or dinner bcos i told him i m bored in room... although my face still full of dry skin n i felt so "paiseh" to interact with people, but my dear keep convince me that it's just temporary, don't worry!

Until today i wasn't fully recovered but i'm strong enough for daily work ady, just waiting those pox to dry and  i can back to my normal skin condition. The sad thing is i can't eat BLACK food-- food with black sauce to avoid black scar on face, and therefore really not many choices of food i can eat before 100% recover.

LIFE is Unpredictable, u wouldn't know when virus come attack u !

Thank q so much my dear for caring so much during my sick period, he care for my meal ,my emotion, and accompany me when i needed him although he was soooo busy.

Thank q my lovely Daddy for worrying me so much and give me call evyday , U're the best man in this world!

Thank q my cute n caring frens who came visit me-- ewen,hui shan,ying hui, mee yen, cheng cher, sau kheng (the bravest room8 who evyday slept in same room, not afraid of virus!! )

Thank q my "sam pat" coursemates who greet me when see me on9, i noe u guys caring me jz tat afraid of virus...haha...

For those who involve secara tidak langsung, thx also !

Thank Q to all of u make me feel warm during the fight, I appreciated it so much! I LOVE U guys !!!